I remember way back when Josh proposed, and I was oh-so-excited to share this and that about the wedding. And then...I never did.
In fact, I'm pretty sure the last real wedding post I did was about wedding cakes.
I've never gone into details or feelings.
Well, the time has come:
I'll be honest with you; Josh and I can't really fathom the fact that we're getting married.
It honestly doesn't seem...real.
"Oh, next Saturday? 9 days from now? I'm busy. No big deal, just getting married!"
Josh and I have talked about this a lot.
It's not even a negative thing. I guess it just hasn't really hit either of us yet.
Did any of you ever deal with this? Or are you currently experiencing feelings like these?
WARNING: This next part comes with a serious rant.
So many things with this wedding seem to just be going wrong.
Maybe I'm just experiencing normal, bride-like feelings.
I always knew that things like this were to be expected, but some of this is just like...pull your hair/bawl your eyes out/scream at the top of your lungs* aggravating.
You're probably like, "Wow, Lydia. Way to be dramatic."
And maybe I am, but I honestly don't even mean to be that way.
It's just difficult when your photographer pulls out 2 weeks before the wedding.
It's hard when you have basically no decor for the wedding, but even more than it being hard, it is stupid because you have been such a procrastinator.
(Speaking of, note to self, you still have a couple of invitations to hand out.)
It's stressful to think about how you chose to do the flowers yourself instead of going to the florist because you thought you'd save some money and add a sweet, personal touch.
(AND HELLO. What if you can't find flowers that day?)
And it totally sucks when your groom (love you!) and groomsmen are not even close to being prepared and just want to complain about clothes and costs.
And then it's embarrassing when you go to help a groomsmen (God love ya, Boyd.) pick out some clothes, and you all of a sudden, out of nowhere, break out in tears in the menswear section of the JCPenney department store.
But, despite all of that...
You know what's wonderful?
It's wonderful having friends who will step in last minute and help with photography.
It's great that I have 8 days of completely free time and I can/will put some serious work into the decor and style of this wedding.
It's so nice that there will always be flowers. Even if they did happen to end up being fake.
It's the best when you have a fiancee who totally defends you and promises you that it will work, even if he has to take care of things himself.
It's so happy and sweet that I have people in my life who truly care, and who will always be there, and who want to help me.
It's such a blessing.
Oh, and you know what's so cute?
My adorable wedding cake topper done by Sarah from TogetherForever on Etsy.
I'm completely in love with it.
And even though it's something as simple (yet totally amazing!) as a cake topper...
It reminds me about what is truly important about this day:
Josh and Me.
Me and Josh.
J + L