Fit Friday: I hate clothes, but not really.

I kind of forgot about Fit Friday until just now. MY BAD.

So, just a little body update before we get started here:

-I haven't lost any weight.
-I've actually gained a couple of pounds.
-I know, I'm totally impressing you.

ANYWAYS.
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Trying on clothes is basically the bane of my existence right now. Seriously.
I hate finding things that I love, then walking into the dressing room only to find that they don't fit or just look super awkward and unflattering.
It's such a bummer, but as you can see...I haven't done anything about it yet.

A few days ago I asked Josh if he could help me out with some extra money for buying new spring/summer clothes. He said he would, but I have to pick an amount of weight I want to lose by a certain time, in order to get it.
You're probably thinking: "What a jerk!"
But I promise you...He is no such thing. I actually really appreciate him doing this.
His reasoning: He is tired of me constantly talking about how "fat" I am, but not doing anything about it. I get that. So, this way, I do something about it...get healthier...my body will improve...and I get new clothes for said body. Decent.

So. The goal:

CW: 182
GW: 174
By: March 30

Hopefully by the next update I will have some results that I'm proud to share.

Fit Friday: Let's Begin.

In January, I posted about my goals for 2012 (Didn't everybody?). One of these being that I want to lose weight (Who doesn't?). So, I've decided to start blogging about this "journey" of sorts. Partially to hold me accountable, I guess + also because some people requested it, saying they thought it would be encouraging and things like that. And I'm all about helping you guys out, so I'm in. Let's begin!

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These are obviously not the cutest photos, nor are they very..."revealing." I have some of those, but don't feel comfortable sharing them yet. Perhaps when I've shown some progress, I'll share those to compare.

Anyways.

I'm 5'6".

Pre-Baby I weighed 168.

At the end of my pregnancy: 195.

Right after giving birth: 173.

Currently: 180.

I am pretty overweight. 2009 is when I started gaining, and prior to that, I only weighed 120 lbs. It's hard for me to even imagine being that small and what I would look like, but I really hope to get there. All of this extra weight has put my body in pretty rough shape, so I don't just want to lose to feel prettier, but to just generally feel better. 

I lost nothing in January. Lost nothing so far this month. I even purchased a WW subscription and haven't really used it. The only thing holding me back is pure laziness and that is RE-diculous. 

I have so many reasons for wanting to get healthy and lose weight. I can't figure out why those things don't beat out my laziness...I need a Jillian moment. (Biggest Loser fans will know to what I am referring.)

I started doing the Insanity workout in January. I did it for a week, then the day before my rest day I pulled a muscle in my knee. So I rested on my rest day, rested the day after, rested the day again...And so on and so on. Being conscious of my diet and eating habits went out the window right along with that. 

This post is pretty all over the place. But I'm just trying to write really open and honestly, so this is what you get. 

Hopefully I won't be a big, fat (literally) failure like the typical New Year cliche. I know that I just have to do it. (Hello, Nike.) I have to make myself change, something has to click within me for true change to happen. But I have to make the effort in order for that to occur.

SO MUCH RAMBLING. BAH.

This was hard to post. Sigh.

*I don't know if this will be weekly, bi-weekly, whatever yet. So if there isn't a post on this next week, don't just think I'm being a loser. Thanks! : )