(Our first picture, just the three of us. Sharing just because.)
In the good ol' days, I blogged for fun.
I would tell you about this + that. Little snippets from my everyday life.
I wasn't constantly looking over my shoulder, thinking, "I wonder if this sounds dumb. Is my point coming across? Will this garner attention? I want sponsors! NOTICE ME."
I really, truly blogged simply for...fun.
Those things are all nice things, of course.
But what happens when those things start to dictate how you run your blog?
For me, the effects have not been positive. Blog posts became few and far between, because nothing I had to say seemed "good enough." Is it totally embarrassing of me to admit all of this? Probably. But I don't want to care anymore. I miss seeing blogs that were full of honesty and fun. Just simple posts about truth and basic stuff.
I need to read more of that. I want to get back to writing more of that.
I want to tell you about how I'm really disorganized, messy, and overwhelmed, and how I'm working on changing that, not just show you the "afters" and pretend that life is just this pretty and well kept all the time.
I want to tell you that I'm really overweight and unhealthy, and have been for years, and share with you the journey I'm on changing this, not just hide anything but my shoulders up in photos until next year.
I could go on, but I know you get it.
Anyway, I just want to really, truly, unapologetically be myself.
"Always be a first rate version of yourself, instead of a second rate version of someone else."