Lyds, Currently...

Obsessing over... GCB and Once Upon A Time. Such good shows! 

Working on... being more focused on my family. 

Thinking about... coloring my hair back to a darker shade. I miss it.

Anticipating... Chicago this weekend! I'm so excited!

Listening to... sleeping baby sounds. Oh, and I've also started listening to Rocky Votolato again...Best.

Wishing for... a great 22nd year! (Yesterday was my birthday.) 

This edition of "Currently" was pretty brief. I think I'm just feeling quiet today. : )

the baby love of my life.

Finally, there are pictures of the two of us. I'm so happy to have this memory.

Tatum Auden: 4 Months.

 

{just don't mess with me, okay?}

Height: 25.5 inches.
Weight: 13.3 lbs.
Head: 16.6 inches.

I can...

-roll in both directions now. I started rolling belly to back at 2 months and back to belly at 3.5.

-yell! And I do it at all the time. Taking me places like the post office can get a bit awkward...

-smile and laugh in reaction to people. It's Smile City over here.

-scoot. I don't do it much, but when I do, I can get a couple of feet in my dust.

I like... 

-playing Airplane.

-visiting my family.

-my toys, but only in very small doses.

-being on my belly. It's virtually impossible to keep me on my back these days.

-chewing on stuff!

I don't like... 

-when people make me wait.

-playing with my toys for more than about 10 minutes.

{I know people hate me for this, but there isn't much that the kid doesn't like. And she seriously cries for maybe 10 minutes a day.}

The First Ouchie 

A couple of days ago, Mom put me on my rocking caterpillar toy for the first time. It was awesome. And then not so awesome when she let go for .00021 seconds and I started to fall off, sideways. Luckily, she grabbed my arm for part of the fall, so my landing wasn't too traumatic. 

I may have still cried, though...

Eating...

My doctor says I can start eating a little bit of food here + there! 

Mom + Dad let me try some oatmeal the other night, but we're not sure about it.

We're rethinking things and might just eat veggies and the occasional fruit for now.

See ya next month, guys!

Love, Tatum

i choose you.

{typical josh. also, weirdest picture ever for this post.}

•I choose you – above all others.
•I choose you – above myself.
•I choose you – above my children.***
•I choose you – above my career.
•I choose you – regardless of income.
•I choose you – in spite of your weirdness.
•I choose you – in spite of my quirkiness.
•I choose you – so I will forgive when you’re wrong.
•I choose you – so I will repent when I’m wrong.
•I choose you – so I will give you the benefit of the doubt.
•I choose you – even when I think you’re stupid.
•I choose you – even when you treat me like I’m stupid.
•I choose you – when we’re in debt.
•I choose you – when we have more than we ever dreamed possible.
•I choose you – when you succeed.
•I choose you – when you fail.
•I choose you – when you’re nice.
•I choose you – when you’re not so nice.
•I choose you – when you’re beautiful.
•I choose you – when you’re messy.
•I choose you – when you’re healthy.
•I choose you – when you’re hurting.
•I choose you – when we agree.
•I choose you – when we disagree.
•I choose you – when all’s right with the world.
•I choose you – when everything falls apart.
•I choose you – when life is busy and we don’t get to see each other.
•I choose you – in those quiet moments that it’s just the two of us.
•I choose you – your dreams, desires, & hopes.
•I choose you – your hurts, habits & hang ups.
•I choose you – your family.
•I choose you – above my own rights or opinions. This is mutual submission out of mutual respect.
•In light of every other possibility - I choose you.


A friend shared that with me the other day, and I immediately emailed it to Josh.
It's so, so spot on and reading it made me so happy. Everyday with Josh, I make the choice to love him, and him me. It doesn't just happen...Love isn't some magical, sunshine and roses type of deal.
Because love isn't just a feeling inside of you.
It's an action.
And man, sometimes...Love. Is. Work. It just is.
But from my experience, it's some of the most fulfilling work that there is.
And every single day I am so happy that we have made the choice, put forth the effort, and really loved each other.

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On a less serious note: I cannot stop thinking about Pokemon now. "Joshua! I. CHOOSE. YOUUUUU." Yep.

With me, you get some serious, but also a lot of silly.
It's called balance, guys.

***JUST FYI, before I get any comments on it, I take this to mean that I make time for Josh + it's not always about Tatum, that I consider his opinion first, that I respect his decision making, and so on.

Lyds, Currently...

{my ombre'd hair. i'd like to make it clear i had just woken up.}

Obsessing over...Madddawggg on Youtube. SO good. Madison has a blog, too! Check it out HERE.

And even better, she is super nice! I kind of wish we were besties.

Working on...my new Etsy shop, Lyds Vintage! I am so excited to finally have this little guy up + running. I've been talking about doing this for years. It was about time I followed through with it! Please, click the Etsy link in the sidebar, and check it out. 

Thinking about...going back to a dark hair color. It's hasn't been dark in a long time + I kinda miss it.

Anticipating...Tuesday! Okay, this is so dorky of me...but Josh apparently ordered me an Edible Arrangement gift as a surprise and I'm just really excited for it. Because, A) I like fruit! B) It's sweet that Josh got me a surprise. (I found out because I mentioned my friend Annie's husband getting her one as a surprise and how I thought it was nice of him and Josh started acting awkward and laughing, then he told me.) However, I do think it's kind of a funny gift...Ha.

Listening to...Dora the Explorer. Funny how tolerable it is these days. (And yes, I let my baby watch tv occasionally.)

Eating...nothing! But I am drinking coffee. (I think that's always my response to this one!)

Wishing for...the weather to stay this beautiful year round. It is so nice and pretty out! It's the absolute best.

Have a great week!

happy four months.

My little bean (string, vanilla, green, burrito...you name it, she is referred to as every variety these days) is four months old* today.
It's crazy how it feels like it hasn't been that long at all, yet it feels like she's been here forever.

She is growing so, so big. Learning something new every day.

It's exciting to watch her grow. Even if at times it does give me a slight sting in the heart.

I love you so much, T.

I am so proud to be your Mama.

*developmental update will be posted on the 21st, after her doctor appt.

send help now.

{the evidence}

You guys.

I have to tell my child on a daily basis that I fear her. 

Sister is scary!

The past few days, it's like all she does is yell. And she's not crying, fussing, or upset. She's just yelling. She has something to say + you better listen. Or else.

Sometimes, she just sits hunched over in her bumbo...rubbing her hands together...growling...plotting?

We're scared.