These are obviously not the cutest photos, nor are they very..."revealing." I have some of those, but don't feel comfortable sharing them yet. Perhaps when I've shown some progress, I'll share those to compare.
Pre-Baby I weighed 168.
At the end of my pregnancy: 195.
Right after giving birth: 173.
I am pretty overweight. 2009 is when I started gaining, and prior to that, I only weighed 120 lbs. It's hard for me to even imagine being that small and what I would look like, but I really hope to get there. All of this extra weight has put my body in pretty rough shape, so I don't just want to lose to feel prettier, but to just generally feel better.
I lost nothing in January. Lost nothing so far this month. I even purchased a WW subscription and haven't really used it. The only thing holding me back is pure laziness and that is RE-diculous.
I have so many reasons for wanting to get healthy and lose weight. I can't figure out why those things don't beat out my laziness...I need a Jillian moment. (Biggest Loser fans will know to what I am referring.)
I started doing the Insanity workout in January. I did it for a week, then the day before my rest day I pulled a muscle in my knee. So I rested on my rest day, rested the day after, rested the day again...And so on and so on. Being conscious of my diet and eating habits went out the window right along with that.
This post is pretty all over the place. But I'm just trying to write really open and honestly, so this is what you get.
Hopefully I won't be a big, fat (literally) failure like the typical New Year cliche. I know that I just have to do it. (Hello, Nike.) I have to make myself change, something has to click within me for true change to happen. But I have to make the effort in order for that to occur.
SO MUCH RAMBLING. BAH.
This was hard to post. Sigh.
*I don't know if this will be weekly, bi-weekly, whatever yet. So if there isn't a post on this next week, don't just think I'm being a loser. Thanks! : )